sorry to inconvenience u all with me putting back my password.. my dearest clara just reminded me why i shld leave the password on.. hehe.. yup.. and just to update.. i'm leaving for melb tonight with my mum and i'll be gone for 14-16 days.. u'll either see me back on the 8th or 11th of april.. feel really really bad for pang seh-ing so many ppl.. promised to do or go places that i had to cancel coz everything's so last min.. only got tickets yest.. i wanna go for serve grad..was really looking forward to it.. guess i'll only have photos and videos to look forward to.. and my ballet under the stars.. no more.. no more.. can't imagine if i were to go to melb to study.. think i'll say goodbye to everybody at least twice.. oh wells.. shaln't think too much of the future.. else it surprises u.. its raining its pouring the old man is snoring! *pitter patter!*will try to update u guys from my sis's com over in melb.. and will take lotsa photos for u guys.. and will take photos of pris also so u guys will know that she's safe and sound.. =) she sounded really happy when i called her jus now to tell her that i wld be going down to visit her.. kinda looking forward to seeing her tho' we weren't exactly very close when she was here..bye everybody! don't miss me! (:
stir (: - 4:22 PM.
no more password! am still contemplating whether i shld put it back on.. yup.. new layout.. i've been extremely extremely bored at home.. think i seriously need to get a job or else i'll have no more money to spend and splurge.. haven't been blogging coz nothing's happenng in my life.. i need to get a life! went out with my SERVE group two days back.. it felt really really good to see them again.. tho' it wasn't the whole group.. really hope these friends are for life.. even tho' we haven't met for the past few weeks.. its been so easy talking about our lives again.. a very very nice sense of familiarity.. shin yee was talking about going back to Mambang Di-Awan in may.. really looking forward to it.. hope the plans don't fall thru tho.. really miss that bunch of ppl.. oh serve graduation seremony's coming up.. heard the cert's really nice.. can't wait to meet up with everybody again.. but there's this sense of reluctance coz this will be the last time we meet again.. i miss our room with too short chairs and tables.. i miss the lil corner with the sofa and cushions.. i miss taking silly mtv videos.. met wei fang on the bus today.. and according to hui zhen.. she wants a bikini for her birthday.. and she wants the whole lot of us to go to sentosa with her so tt she can wear her bikini.. haha.. i miss them.. everytime i walk past st nicks.. the first ppl i think of are my dearest guides.. and not my class, most of whom i've known since pri sch.. really miss the times we went thru 'hardships' and the fun times too.. on the bright side.. i'm gonna meet them tmw to celebrate hui fen's birthday.. march babies are cool! haha.. i just had to say that.. i wanna go for ballet under the stars..
stir (: - 8:41 PM.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005 back from 5612 orientation camp.. i feel old!! haha.. i think i was easily the oldest girl there alongside with eugenia, clara and babe.. kinda felt out of place there.. felt more like a caretaker than a camper.. i wanna be young again! oh wells.. camp was nice tho'.. talked lots to the three above mentioned.. think i got to know them better in a certain way.. esp my dear clara.. whom i had to spend hours with at romantic fort canning hill talking nonsense, taking photos, talking serious.. all this while waiting for the diff groups to come since we were the so called station masters.. haha.. silly clara didn't even know where the sculpture was.. we had to ask the security guard when we first reached there.. haha.. think kids nowadays grow up way faster than we did last time.. we used to be blur and innocent.. but now they're either spoilt or they grow up too fast.. the exceptions being the ultra quiet ones.. i kinda miss being a child.. think i used to be really blur.. haha.. like i didn't really cared what was going on around me until i was sec1.. i miss the innocence of my childhood.. the way i made friends with anybody who talked to me.. i miss sunday school.. our U-shaped 'ring'.. all our silly jokes and stuff.. was trying to name all the ppl in our sunday school class last night with alpha and babe.. only a handful are still here in yf now.. i miss the whole lot of them.. i jus realised that i digressed alot.. haha.. anyway think the most hilarious thing happened during lunch/tea just now.. went to swenson's after camp with alicia, alpha, pui yee, babe and clara.. we had two yummy yummy earthquakes.. and my dearest clara toppled her cup like 4 times.. of which twice had water in it and poor babe who was sitting opp her got wet like twice.. haha.. clara's gonna murder me for this.. =) i will not worry because worry only compounds the situation. i'm beginning to enjoy this freedom in my heart.
stir (: - 2:51 AM.
thanks to all for making my birthday such a happy one this year.. (:
had the best surprise late last night.. my dearest jude and jo stood outside my hse near midnight and called my name in their sweet sweet voices and it gave me a shock.. haha.. and then i looked out my window and they started seranading happy birthday to me.. haha.. unfortunately jo lost the candle so the cute lighter that she brought was useless.. but i loved it.. and i love them to bits.. haha.. and i loved the oreo cheesecake too.. its just too bad that they couldn't stay over.. being the busy ppl that they are..
then met clara and eugenia for lunch today.. and as usual, they were both late.. haha.. clara got off the train at dhoby ghaut and walked all the way to plaza sing before she rem that we were meeting at city hall.. hee.. ah ma pls don't scold me for writing tt down.. (: had the nicest crepes at Out of the Pan.. yummy.. haha.. the fountain at raffles city will remind me of clara for the rest of my life.. haha.. it sounds just like a blowspout.. my dearest eugenia had to go get her wedding dress after that so me and clara walked and shopped.. was in the mood to splurge but apparently nothing came in the correct size today so i was reduced to buying a simple tee from topshop.. haha.. had choc fondue at max brenner with clara and nic after shopping.. the last time i went there was almost a year ago for my birthday too.. haha.. and nic was there too.. the service today was way better tho'.. and just before we left...clara just had to show her clumsy side by overturning her cup.. haha..
i love my daddy to bits!! he bought this giraffe carved out of ebony for me.. its really really nice and its almost up to my waist.. he was so excited to show me the carving that he kept on calling me and hurrying me to go downstairs when i got home.. super cute.. haha.. had nice nice dinner with my parents.. but it didn't feel the same coz my bro's not here to celebrate our birthdays together.. oh wells..
p/s: i still love u pammie!! (:
stir (: - 4:01 AM.
why is it that some people like to lie about stuff.? why can't they just tell the truth and be honest about it.? i absolutely abhor liars.. especially when it is so extremely blatant.. To Daniel group: Thanks so much for the bbq and brownie and presents.. i really appreciate the effort u guys put in.. esp for the brownie which was soaked in oil at first.. haha.. i love u guys lots.. its been a great two months and i really hope that we can keep in touch no matter where we are.. (:To mark: i wonder whether u'll ever see this.. but thanks for dinner and for trying to cheer me up.. u did a pretty good job.. haha.. really glad to have u as a good friend and thanks for putting up with all my nonsense and whining.. haha.. i can just feel your head growing bigger as u read this.. (: To judy my dear: Really glad to have been able to catch up with u on sunday.. its been pretty long since we last talked.. really miss our sunday breakfasts and lunches.. and the times when we cld talk till the cows come home.. always rem that i'm here if u ever need anything k..To pam and celest: i miss u gals lots!! feels like we're drifting again.. coz i haven't had a proper talk with u gals in such a long time.. and as i said above, i miss our sundays breakfasts! and all the spastic photos that we took.. and our sunday shopping.. pam.. we must go amore tog sometime soon k.. when u're not so busy.. celest.. my smart lil gal.. we must catch up during your march hols k.. coz i think after tt u'll be busy busy busy.. (:ok.. i'm too lazy to leave msges for anyone else..it'll come later k.. haha..
stir (: - 2:58 AM.
stir (: - 11:17 PM.
a tinge of sadness.. then shock and disappointment.. but i still don't understand how it come out like that.. eugenia thinks i need parental supervision now.. hee hee.. so she makes sure i'm constantly with somebody.. thanks mummy for your concern.. i love u loads.. =) i realise that my results have caused me to look at a wider range of options since those that i initially wanted to do are now out of reach.. i realise i'm still in the process of learning to trust God.. i know my results were for a reason.. but i still don't understand why and that is exactly what i want to know.. maybe this is God's way of breaking and moulding me.. and thanks alot to eugenia, clara, jude, mark, nic, eugene, pam and all the rest who showed me concern over these two days.. i really appreciate it alot..
stir (: - 2:23 AM.
i absolutely love this song!! I wanna make you smile, whenever you're sad carry you around when your arthritis is bad all I want to do, Is grow old with you I'll get your medecine when your tummy aches build you a fire when the furnace brakes oh it could be so nice growing old with you I'll miss you, kiss you, give you my coat when you are cold need you, feed you, even let u hold the remote control Let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink put you to bed when you've had to much to drink I could be the man who grows old with you I wanna grow old with you
stir (: - 1:24 AM.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005 came back from perak on monday.. i've learnt so much there.. it was really amazing.. one of the most important thing i learnt was that however hard we try to come up with schedules and programmes, it never really matters coz only God's schedule is the one that we should be following.. realised that it can be really frustrating when things don't go our way.. but at the end of it, we get something even more rewarding when it is what God wants.. ok i shall not blog about every single day.. if u guys want to know more pls come and ask me personally.. i'll be more than happy to share.. haha.. and i really love my group to bits!! think we really compliment each other really really well.. we only had one problem among us and that was sorta settled on the last night.. will always remember our family tree and family actions.. our various mtvs and spastic photos.. our lame jokes and silly catch phrases.. will always hold all these fond memories of the whole lot of us close to my heart.. i miss my group..i miss talking to jude and pam and jo and mark.. esp my dearest jude.. feel so far away from her life now.. feels like i don't really know her.. miss the times when we would just sit in a corner and talk and talk about everything and anything.. realised that what pam said was very true (see doodle board..).. i don't really know what's going on in her life and its the same for her.. maybe that's why i find it hard to just open up and talk to her.. it just feels different.. i don't know why.. really hope that we can talk like before again.. and jo.. no matter where u are.. i'll always be here for u k.. really miss the old times and we must go out whenever we can k.. i hate feeling so bottled up.. i hate feeling so cornered.. i hate not knowing what to do.. i absolutely abhor whatever i'm feeling now.. why is it that things can never go exactly the way that i want it to be.? why must there always be obstacles and stumbling blocks in front of my path.? i hate putting up a front for everyone to see.. i hate having to pretend that i'm absolutely happy when i'm not.. and sometimes, i hate this world..
stir (: - 11:37 PM.
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