didn't go for 3rd service yest.. celest didn't go too coz she was sick.. mark said it was like a trial run for the future when we're really gone.. met up with my jc friends last thurs.. its funny how we've been thru so much tog yet i still feel so distant from some of them.. it just feels diff.. somehow it almost feels like i wasted my two yrs trying to be friends with ppl who don't really care abt being friends with me.. such hypocrisy.. i hate the feeling of vulneralbility. i had my safe haven. but even that, i had to give up. i miss that sense of security. i lost a best friend. dinner last night felt like i almost had my safe haven back. its out of my grasp. out of my reach. will my safe haven always be there. till i come back. i nv expected you to be so loyal.. to be such a strong pillar of strength for me.. will that place u said is empty now still be when i come back? will it?
stir (: - 2:19 PM.
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