Monday, September 26, 2005
the holidays are here! i know this post is five days late.. but the exams were alright.. don't think i'll do too badly.. and i woke up bright and not-so-early today and cleaned my room! my long overdue springcleaning.. i cleaned and vacuumed and tidied everything.. happy happy.. and my kitchen's clean too.. all thanks to a special someone.. (: the past four days were great.. the best four days of my life i dare say.. four blissfully unreal days that passed by in a flash.. too short, too fast.. i wish everyday were a hundred hours long.. but then again, i still wouldn't be satisfied would i? i wish it were for eternity then.. maybe then will i be satisfied.. i feel empty now.. going home to a empty house and room isn't all that pleasant and welcoming.. felt so empty that i went for a jog in the gym.. vent all my emotions out.. didn't seem to help tho'.. after everybody left.. that same aching emptiness came back to haunt me.. i'm lost for words at how we never seem to run out of things to talk about.. how you never ever fail in cheering me up.. how we seem to understand each other so so well.. how after so long, we've changed, yet deep inside, we're still the same.. mummy, thanks so so so much for the present! i love it! and i love you too!! (: liane chia! faster come back! i miss u loads! melb just seems different without u here.. its so boring now! nobody to laugh with and crack silly jokes that only we understand.. nobody to talk to.. nobody to go on shopping sprees with.. faster come back girl!!
stir (: - 12:08 PM.
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
i was sitting outside the state library today studying psychology and basking in the sun, or rather, the remnants of it. and there was this guy sitting between me and liane.. and after awhile he started talking to us.. and he said i looked like i was thai or vietnamese.. something like that.. he seemed like it didn't matter what the topic was.. he just wanted to talk to someone.. so i talked to him for awhile.. and he told me how he nv made it to uni cos he wasn't the study type and how he could never ever manage to get so much knowledge into his brain.. anyway, that made me think.. of how fortunate i am to be studying here.. when the only time he was ever out of the country was last year.. and that made me think also of my learning capacity.. maybe i'm not as stupid as the system says i am.. and as i was sitting there by myself outside the library after liane went back in, this homey came up to me and asked for change.. was really quite scared.. but i just raised my voice at him when he persisted.. bleah! i'm glad lit paper is over.. i feel so relieved now.. i've psyc tmw.. but nothing compares to the stress that lit gave me.. i can't wait for exams to end.. 2 more days.. (: "I've given my soul to this journey, and travelled roads I've never taken before so I can give you reason to live. I've passed through the desert of dry poppies, and met people I've never seen before so I could discover hope for you from their dremas. And now I have brought you a thousand bright reasons to live. I've come to believe that if someone who has lost their leg does not become a champion runner then it's their own fault."
stir (: - 11:47 PM.
Thursday, September 15, 2005
i'm taking a break from studies now.. all for u ah ma! hee.. these days have been pretty busy.. study study study.. think i'm studying harder than i did in jc.. haha.. no wonder i'm here.. (: handed in my 1200 word essay on tues.. really glad its over.. i hate athens now.. bleah.. but i don't mind going there for holiday.. haven't been cooking these days.. and i ate yong tau foo yesterday! haven't eaten it in such a long time! and now i'm craving dau hui.. not just any dau hui.. i want dau hui with eugenia.. haha.. (: whee.. dinner time! shall eat then study again! its becoming my hobby.. 7 days to go.. please don't let me down.
stir (: - 6:29 PM.
Saturday, September 03, 2005
went for cell today.. first time since i came to melb.. it felt really really good.. like i only knew the people there for two weeks.. and i met some of them for the first time.. but we really shared.. and i like that.. there was this bond that formed really quickly.. i feel comfortable there.. think this will be somewhere that i can grow in.. happy happy happy! *big grin* i learnt three things tonight.. 1. He knows. 2. He cares. 3. He is able. short and sweet.. yet full of meaning.. it wasn't the main theme for bible study tonight.. just something the cell leader said during worship.. but it struck me.. we always think that God doesn't know wad's going on.. but He does.. we always think that God doesn't care when we're in trouble.. but He does.. we always think we don't need God's help to solve our problems, that He isn't here physically so He can't help.. but God's ability is infinite.. He is able.. i absolutely love u! my twin.. my bro.. my confidante.. thx for the email.. (: u're definitely a friend for life.. and i believe nothing can get to this friendship anymore.. i'm sorry i'm too lazy to reply your email.. heh.. i know u'll forgive me.. (: whee..
stir (: - 1:13 AM.
Friday, September 02, 2005
whee.. no bloody bloody stir for u ah ma! heh.. maybe another time k.. (: u better faster email me and tell me what happened.. i wanna know! oh.. i went fencing last night!! had to use their club gear cos i don't have my stuff with me.. but it was alright.. wasn't dirty at all.. maybe abit.. and i borrowed this epee from this guy and his guard was really heavy.. raar! they only have 3 epeeist there.. so poor thing la.. :( but i'll still go back on monday to fence.. i'm happy.. I love you, very simple, very true. You are the epitomy of everything I've ever looked for in another human being ... please know that I am forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me.
stir (: - 9:48 AM.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
drama was really pretty enjoyable.. wasn't nervous at all.. except after i came out and my hands were shivering.. haha.. think we had more fun playing with fake blood and make up and what nots.. and the photos we took aren't very flattering and shall not be posted up.. (: celest and i were thinking of buying potted plants for our living room.. like bright flowers to brighten up the place.. haha! but we cldn't find nice pots that weren't too ex.. i have this feeling that both of us wld jus forget to water the poor plant and it'll die vv quickly..i've been studying out the past two nights.. i'm tired.. i hate Thucydides and his war! life wld be so much easier if he hadn't written that bit of history down.. raar! exams are in two weeks.. i think i'll study out very often till then.. i'm scared.. i'm getting scared of exams.. a sense of learned helplessness.. i learnt that today in psychology.. think it applies to me and my phobia of exams.. i'm getting stressed.. i should eat at home more often.. i want my apples and snow peas and chinese cabbage.. maybe they'll help me study better.. i realised something.. even though the friends i have here are really different (in a certain way) from those back home.. i'm really beginning to enjoy hanging out with them.. i realised i've stopped comparing and started to take them as they are.. these are ppl that i don't wanna lose touch with.. even if i do go to US to study.. my mum says i shld go US only after my degree.. do my masters there.. maybe i wld do just that.. i've no time to think about all this.. i shall just work hard and get my grades first.. mummy: i miss u! i wanted to call u today.. but i had no time.. and i'm really tired now! i'm going to blackmail u one day with that photo u sent me! hee.. u've officially taken over my role! haha..mark koh! thanks for calling last night! i miss talking to u.. its really been ages.. like i don't know what's going on in your life anymore.. faster reply my email! don't be lazy baboon! do take care of your health and eat more! haha.. and when i get back lets go eat mudpie again! yum! (: Building castles on quicksand Wearing all the emperor’s new clothes Reaching down through the looking glass Where am I on the yellow brick road Always ending where I began
stir (: - 12:58 AM.
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