Thursday, October 27, 2005
i am stressed. Did you know that stress is an ambiguous term which is used variously to describe the situation, object or person causing stress, the feelings and physical responses elicited in the individual, and the resultant outcomes, whether these are behavioral, cognitive or physiological (Hayward, 1998). the library's my best friends these few days.. have been going there for the past three days.. lugging my laptop along cos i'm a stingy poker and i dun wanna photocopy my research.. and also cos i'm too lazy to copy all my research down.. raar! i'm mentally drained.. i wish somebody would just come and bring me out for a nice dinner so that i wouldn't think abt essays and what to eat.. somebody.. anybody.. i suddenly thought of eugenia and gelare as i was typing the 'somebody' just now.. mummy! where are u?! i wanna go eat gelare with u.. its not just the food that matters.. its the company and joy tt u bring.. blah! study hard mummy.. my mouth is itchy (liane 2005:1). heh.. i crave something.. but i don't know what.. all i know is that as long as its not anything that i've been eating these few days then i'll love it.. i think.. my birks are here! whee.. i'm a happy girl.. its the only think today that cheered me up.. other than jess' lameness of cos.. the spice of life.. somehow i get reminded of the spices.. haha.. i think of how we met back in 1999.. how we drifted.. how we drew closer again.. how we got the name spices.. the whole lot of you is my spice of life.. pam jude jo celest.. and we can't possibly leave out mark and josh cos somehow u guys are a part of the spices.. haha..recent events have shown me what a lucky girl i am and how much i really treasure you somehow, we nv lost that so-called connection somehow, u're always in my mind somewhere somehow, u're the one who understands me most somehow...
stir (: - 10:29 PM.
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
its time to pack the jackets and long sleeves in! whee.. the weather's been really really good these few days.. the skirts and flip-flops are out.. (:school's getting quite boring these days.. weekends are getting boring too.. my sis is coming over for dinner tmw.. happy happy.. haven't seen her in quite a long while.. i feel my energy slowly getting sapped out of me.. i need chicken essence.. but i'm too lazy to heat it up.. either that or i don't have time to.. i love walking around nowadays.. cos its so sunny and warm.. but i can't find my sunnies.. i think i lost them.. how now brown cow? anybody wanna sponsor a poor girl with some sunnies.? and maybe a couple of nice skirts would be nice too.. (: whee.. i'm rambling.. but i like it.. haven't rambled in a long while.. i feel like a piece of driftwood sometimes.. drifting here there everywhere.. i love my hiro cake.. rem how i always spelt it as hero.. and all my friends in primary school will scold me.. haha.. but the size of it shrank! so cheater bug! the last time i ate it( in pr sch), it was so big and nice and crumbly..and there was more chocolate.. boo.. lousy hiro cake maker keep cutting corners.. bleah! but i still love it.. so i shaln't complain no more.. (: pamy! i saw the few photos on your blog.. do please post more photos of what's left of the spices.. pretty please! i miss u all so much.. the days where we did oh-so-silly stuff.. when we didn't think any of us would leave and we had such a rosy picture of us all growing up together and getting married and growing old.. and we didn't have to think of working and going overseas.. remember the time we tied a certain someone to the table while he was sleeping? and the time when we put toothpaste on another guys arms and stuff? and the way we ran and hid ourselves so that we wldn't get found out.. the way we dressed mark up and then making fun of him after tt.. and the way we took tons of neo-prints and played silly truth or dare and ma-dong.. those are the times that i really treasure.. and i know that in the end, we wouldn't lose tt connection we have simply because of how these memories have moulded us.. raar! i miss the spices truckloads!clara! please rem to say 'huh? what did u say?' heh..i miss telling u to say that.. i miss talking to u ah ma.. i really do..
stir (: - 5:52 PM.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
i have absolutely no idea why i'm blogging now.. don't even know what i wanna blog about.. my whole mind is filled with marco polo and his stupid book "free of fabrication".. i don't care whether he was lying or not.. do u? raar! hmm was talking to mark the other day and was describing to him my 'family' and support system here.. here goes.. first there's alex.. my twin! (: he's this really lame guy who's always willing to listen with his often red hot ears (literally) to whatever problems i have.. and he's really funky and has his own style and he's always disturbing me.. blah! but he understands me really well and we're basically on the same frequency.. then there's liane.. my 'always-by-my-side' girl.. she's the youngest of the lot.. haha.. but more mature than her peers is certain ways, right ninja turtle? (: she bases lotsa stuff on emotions and helps me balance out my thoughts cos i'm always basing things on rationale.. which isn't always good.. and she only drinks hot chocolate.. and always complain that she's fat when its obvious to the whole wide world that she's not.. (: and lastly there's jess.. my tuition kid and ever ready source of entertainment.. he's a slacker who's forever asking me and liane how to write essays or do homework.. haha.. but i think we're alike in ways incomprehensible.. and he claims that when he talks to me, he feels like his talking to someone his age.. does that make me old or him young? one thing's for sure, he never fails in lightening up our moods and bringing smiles.. (: yup.. this sums up my family here.. somehow, if i were studying in s'pore.. i doubt we would ever become this close.. and that's why i'm really glad that i have u guys.. and i nv want to lose u guys cos its only thru our unique circumstances that we were able to draw closer.. (: the days seem to be flying by now.. somehow i feel a lil lost.. feel like i'm just going thru the motions of school and work.. without actually experiencing any of it.. kinda feel like cacoon-ing myself up to shield myself from the world that's zooming past.. maybe that's why i look forward to going home everyday.. not that i don't like school.. but rather sometimes i just want to close myself in my room and immune myself to the world.. i've got a date (:
stir (: - 12:26 AM.
Saturday, October 01, 2005
whee.. had such a great chat with eugenia my dearest last night.. its been so long since we last talked, but somehow, i still felt that connection there.. i'm never ever going to let u go mummy! we'll see each other thru the good times and the bad.. even if i'm not there or u're not here.. i love u loads!!and had a really good chat with jo p too.. he just brings so much joy to my day whenever i talk to him.. (:oh was reading pam's blog.. and i got this..felt good just sittin around, chattin, like the good ol' sec sch days. how i wish i could do this every single day, without having to bother abt an 11am lect the nix mornin. i can never cease reminiscing abt those times where we had a whale of a time with each other, doin the craziest things (: its been nearly 7 years on time's winged chariot and i guess we've all trodden different paths but they'll always cross (: deep down inside, we're still the same! (: yep.. we're still the same pamy dearest! 7 years have come and gone.. we've drifted and got closer thru this time.. and now, i know i don't wanna drift from u guys anymore.. not now, not ever.. we don't have to be all in the same place at the same time.. from all the diff corners of the world we're at.. it can still be the same.. i miss u guys so so much i tell u! there's nothing here that can ever replace u all.. nothing! right celest? hmm.. hols are ending.. i'm halfway thru my accounting essay that's worth 5% only.. i haven't gone to register for a driving test.. i have done shopping tho'.. i have viewed apartments that i can't possibly move into now.. i caught up with a number of ppl.. i've watched tons of dvds.. i've met other ppl's parents.. i don't know what for.. so tell me, was my hol good or not.? i really have no idea..
stir (: - 11:37 AM.
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