Tuesday, December 13, 2005
the thought of going home in 45 days excites me and keeps me motivated. but it also scares me. maybe i've changed so much be it for better or worse that nobody will recognise the new me. i know i've changed alot here. for one, i've come to realise how immature i have been in the past not that i think i'm very mature now. for another, i've come to know the kind of person i do not want to be. thirdly, i've become, in my opinion, a better judge of character. fourthly, i've become more dependent on my friends here. i wonder what it'll be like when we all go back to sg and not see each other for a few days. after spending so much time together be it studying, going to school, chilling, cooking, making fun of liane or even just hanging out. it'll be weird going back and spending so much less time with them. not that i don't miss u guys in sg but its just weird. and i'm scared. i miss u guys so so much but yet i'm scared. i'm scared that i can't connect with you all on the same level anymore. i'm scared that the 5.5 (soon to be 7) mths spent apart will cause drifts that are irreparable. what do i do then? oh well. christmas is coming. no christmas spirit whatsoever. its going to be really really homesick christmas this year. how i wish i could transport myself back. even if its only for a day.
stir (: - 11:49 PM.
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