four days ago i started school with tons of apprehension.
what if this wasn't what i like?
what if its boring?
what if i can't understand anything the lecturers say?
what if i have no friends?
all the what ifs..
and i thought to myself what on earth am i doing in education when i can become an accountant or a psychologist or even a lawyer?
everytime i tell ppl that i'm going to do early childhood education, they give me weird looks and dare not ask for my trinity score cos they think i screwed up again
and for those few moments before i stepped into my first lecture,
i thought i did screw up again.
not with my results, but with what i chose.
but u know what?
i absolutely LOVE what i'm studying now.
not just because i love kids.
but because i know i can change lives.
yeah, i'm being idealistic and all.
but so what?!
i enjoy almost all my classes
i still have no friends and i'm the ultimate loner
and i have to speak with an aussie slang else all the other 119 coursemates will not understand me
but i don't care!
we went to a kindergarten today to observe the kids.
and what's so diff is that the teachers are sitting next to the kids in the classroom, not in front.
its really diff from s'pore and its really something that u'll never ever get to see.
now, all i need to do is find some friends.
that's a really hard task when everybody in my course is australian or did their vce here, except for 3 of us.

if u look really carefully, u'll see a rainbow. (: