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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

i realise the memory chapter that Sarah got us to do for cell each week has been really helpful. was really stressing out the other day and words from Psalm 91 just kept popping up in my head to reassure me. (:

Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. -Phillipians 3:13-14

stir (: - 3:14 PM.

Friday, May 26, 2006

i think i'm hilarious.
and i'm getting my blur streak back. (:
and sometimes i just want to laugh at myself
but that'll be quite silly wouldn't it?

i bought pretty pretty pink lilies to put in my vase at home.
and they make me happy.
esp this morning, when i cldn't get myself out of bed for a lecture that i've only gone once before.

i drew up a study plan two days ago.
and i realise that i have to write 7 essays in 7 days.
wow.
how nice that'll be.
anybody wanna help me write essays?
and i FINALLY bought the reading booklet for one of my subjects.
$40 for 4 weeks of studying.
i'm not last minute la.
everybody bought theirs this week too.
except for this ULTRA kiasu woman in my tute who prob bought it the minute it came off the photocopying machine.

i hate blogging from the library.
my internet spoil!
and i've been internet-less since sunday
which is no good when i have to print lect notes to study.
i'm going to be a nerd for 4 weeks.
cos i'll be in the library everyday.
cos i can't study at home.

blah. mummy! faster go to the gym! so when i go back we can go eat nice food together with my ah ma. who's prob still you-tubing so i shaln't ask her to go gym cos its no point. heh. (: i miss u guys.

stir (: - 1:29 PM.

Saturday, May 20, 2006

the past two weeks have been like a whirlwind.
i've learnt so much and stressed so much.
i've learnt how to clean up a room full of spilt water, pasta and rice in 7 min.
i've learnt how to ride a scooter.
i've learnt that i'll have no life when i start working in 3.5yrs time.
i've learnt that the cup of milk that spills will invariably be the fullest cup.
i've learnt that its no good to hold conversations with others when u're tired, stressed and cranky.
i've learnt that typos are bound to happen when u're typing with your eyes almost closed.

and off i go to watch The Da Vinci Code and enjoy my 'hoiliday' before i stress again..

stir (: - 5:55 PM.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

its back into the car and as we taxi down the freeway, i see visions of you set among the horizon as the cool wind blows the ash from an old cigarette into my eyes. your perfect hair billowing along, you smile your smile. and you say, you don't mind if the world doesn't fit with you.i reach out and try to touch you but your so far yet your so near.

thanks liane. (: you did put a smile on my face.

sitting in that corner of yours. tears blurring what you see. you want to cry but you have no more energy. you want to cry but you don't know why. you want to cry but you don't have time. your mind's a blank. maybe because you suppress everything till you forget. you forget the things that happen. but the hurt lingers. the pain remains. the sadness never fades. you try to busy yourself with friends. but they never stay for long. with work. but that comes to an end. what do you do when there's nothing. there's no one. and the whole world turns its back on you. everything's empty. only your mind is full. full of thoughts you wanna throw out. full of emotions you wanna block out. but you can't. you want someone to lean on. but there's none. cos you pushed them all away. and you wonder when will it all be over. you know if you want to it could be now. it could be next week. it could be next year.

stir (: - 2:34 PM.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

i think i need to post happier posts..

ooh today on my way to my placement, i got checked by two diff sets of tram conductors while on the same tram.. and the second set saw me alighting so they didn't go up the tram..haha.. serves them right.. i'm a honest tram paying girl now.. (:

the past few days have been great, even though its extremely tiring.. i think i might have been a different person if i grew up in this kinda nursery and kindegarten.. its just so different and fun (for the kids).. there's no such thing as math class, chinese class, etc.. its all incoprated into play and its just such a great environment.. and the kids are fantastic too.. but its been pretty tough.. haven't had time to exercise.. but i think being at the centre is almost like exercising alr.. esp when some of the kids ask u to carry them and swing them ard in a circle.. this 4 yr old boy asked me to do that.. i think i died after doing it twice.. haha..

oh well, time to catch up on my sleep.. and i can't wait for the weekend! (:

stir (: - 11:25 PM.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

raar! got caught in the hail this afternoon as i was on my way back from doing groceries.. not v nice.. and now, i can't find my WHOLE box of contact lens.. my one yr's supply! i've searched my whole house which isn't v big and i still can't find it! not good.. not good at all.. blah! i hate it when i can't find my things.. and i'm determined to find my contacts.. cos i desperately need them.. would somebody please tell me where they are.?

oh wells, off to bathe and cook and study before renewing my search!

stir (: - 6:48 PM.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

the past two weeks were great but yesterday was terrible.. lets start with the good parts first.. (:

my mum was here for the past two weeks and we had a great time.. was really great spending time with my mum.. something tt i know i wldn't do as much when i'm back in singapore.. she kept wanting to buy all these household things that i konw would to rendered useless once she left.. and she kept trying to teach me how to cook dishes that i already knew how to cook.. heh.. which was hilarious cos i'll try to predict what she's going to say and say it before her.. hee.. (: but it was really really good..

ooh and we went to windsor hotel for high tea and the nicest thing about the place was the toilets! oops, the powder room i mean.. heh.. (i wanted to post a picture of the toilet but it cldn't load properly.. raar!)

anyway, my mum left on thurs, and that's when the crazy chionging for my portfolio due on friday started.. imagine this:

you wake up at 7.30am on thurs for a day in the kindergarten where it was utter chaos and full of kids that have too much energy and angst.. think sprinting and fighting and knocking down blocks.. and then you reach back home at 6pm only to be reminded that you have almost half a portfolio to finish before friday.. so you decided to exchange dinner for a cup of coffee and settled down to do your portfolio.. before you know it, you see the sunrise and soon it 8am on friday.. BUT you still have 2-3 paragraphs more to write.. anyhow, you decide to take a nap and recharge for 3hrs before going for class (still trying to be model student even though there's not enough time).. you finish class at 1pm and continued to do your portfolio till 3.30pm and proceeds to print those last pages out.....

....on the second LAST page, your printer runs out of ink!! and in that exact moment, it starts raining heavily outside! you want to scream and shout and cry, but you can't cos there's no time.. so you pack everything up and put on your thickest jacket and grab your trusty old umbrella (unopened for 9months) and went out into the rain and wind.. on opening your umbrella, you realise that it was SPOILT! you almost couldn't believe it but you run out into the rain without the umbrella and caught a tram to uni.. once in the computer lab, you see a few people having some problems with the printer and you think "if the printer dies on me, i'll CRY!" followed by "God please help me!" with that, you proceed to print those last pages out.....

....luckily, this time, all goes well and you go on to hand in your portfolio on time.. (:

yep that's exactly what happened to me.. think at one point in the night i started talking to myself about whether what i was typing was good or bad.. heh.. anw, after that, i went to cut my hair.. not really cut, more like trim i think.. but i like it.. (: and after cell, i went to jess' place and we went to clayton in the middle of the night and explored the monash campus.. haha.. don't ask me whether it was nice cos it was pretty dark and i was cold so nothing really registered.. yep.. and only after that, at ard 4am, did i go home and sleep..

ooh..everybody's blogging abt exam timetables.. and i don't like mine at all!

9th june - Orientation to the Profession
15th june - Learning Area: Maths
19th june - Physical Development
21st june - Learning, Teaching and Play

and liane and jess ENDS on the 9th! and almost everybody else ends around 14 or 15! that means i'll spend a week in solitary confinement with nobody to study with or eat dinner with.. raar! me no like..

but on the plus side, at least i have more time to study since my exams all carry relatively high percentages.. that's the only good thing about it i guess.. :(

stir (: - 9:00 PM.