its back into the car and as we taxi down the freeway, i see visions of you set among the horizon as the cool wind blows the ash from an old cigarette into my eyes. your perfect hair billowing along, you smile your smile. and you say, you don't mind if the world doesn't fit with you.i reach out and try to touch you but your so far yet your so near.

thanks liane. (: you did put a smile on my face.


sitting in that corner of yours. tears blurring what you see. you want to cry but you have no more energy. you want to cry but you don't know why. you want to cry but you don't have time. your mind's a blank. maybe because you suppress everything till you forget. you forget the things that happen. but the hurt lingers. the pain remains. the sadness never fades. you try to busy yourself with friends. but they never stay for long. with work. but that comes to an end. what do you do when there's nothing. there's no one. and the whole world turns its back on you. everything's empty. only your mind is full. full of thoughts you wanna throw out. full of emotions you wanna block out. but you can't. you want someone to lean on. but there's none. cos you pushed them all away. and you wonder when will it all be over. you know if you want to it could be now. it could be next week. it could be next year.

stir (: - 2:34 PM.