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Thursday, August 31, 2006

the week's been great if i dare say so.
i'm up to my neck with essays and camp stuff.
but i'm happy.
"follow your heart" people tell me.
and i did.
not my emo heart.
but the heart that's all for my God.
and its almost as if He's rewarding me.
from the minute i said no.
good happy things have been piling on and on.
i'm up to my neck in happy things as much as i am in work!
now, how about that!

placement starts next week.
and i visited the place yesterday.
and i really thank God for that centre.
everybody was so friendly and nice and willing to take time to talk to me.
that's something i didn't experience in the previous one.
the atmosphere was just so happy and warm.
and i know i'll enjoy it.
cos i ain't gonna do it alone. (:

i need to get back to my 1500 word essay/rationale and 800 word evaluation.
and the library's my best friend now, again.
i like to people-watch in the library.
trying to add my own words to ppl's hushed convos.
hee. i was bored.

and i think my church friends here are beginning to see my 'raar!'s and 'ugh!'s
they were laughing at me last night.
oh wells.
at least this means i'm getting more comfy w them.

and i can't wait to be home. hopefully. (:

stir (: - 11:50 AM.

Friday, August 25, 2006

Matthew 11:28-20

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

stir (: - 1:10 AM.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

i hate bruises.
i have 2 on my left knee and 1 on my right knee and 1 on my thigh.
and i've no idea how it got there.
raar!
i love convos with my dearest mummy.
she makes me laugh.
not the 'hur-hur' trying to be polite laughs.
the belly aching i-wanna-cry kinda laughs.
and those don't come often enough here in melb.
esp since i have to make sure i talk with an accent so my friends understand me.
that takes the humour down a peg.
raar!
i'm now waiting for my raar-ing dinosaur soft toy to appear. (:
even i forgot about that.
haha.
i'm cold. brrr.

and worried.
but then again,
"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"
(:

stir (: - 11:17 PM.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

i started this sem fearful and petrified of what is to come..
i asked God why he had to make me go through all this..
i wrestled and argued..
hoping to find my own way out of that whole supposed mess..
in short, i wanted out.. i wanted to quit..
but you know what,
a princess of God never gives up!
and i didn't..
i told myself to give it half a sem..
and then i'll see how it goes..
and God has proven me wrong..
He never lets me go..
the events of the past three days surprise me..
i actually feel like i'm a part of them..
i actually enjoyed myself tremendously..
no more awkward moments.. (alot less at least)
i'm still scared of next sem..
i still have fear..
but now i know God's gonna be there with me..
but i felt the reassurance of God..
and i thank God for it.. (:

on a side note, the salvation army this morning was the most eye opening, humbling experience ever.. i saw people who looked so broken and worn out praising God more passionately than me.. and i've never diced so many onions before in my whole life.. (:

stir (: - 9:52 PM.

Saturday, August 19, 2006

yesterday was a pretty random day.. dont' scold me but i skipped class to spend time with my sis cos its her birthday today but she wanted to go shopping yest.. so off we went to dfo but not before we gave her best friend from sg a city tour around melb where i realised that my sis knew so much more abt melb than me.. haha.. but dfo was good! (: its like an overdose of shopping tho'.. after awhile the big red SALE sign in every single store doesn't matter anymore and the dresses in the last one-third of stores begin to look the same.. haha.. but i was a happy girl with my buys.. so much for not shopping for the rest of the month.. heh..

and dinner last night at limor's was most enjoyable.. too much meat for my liking tho'.. i'm glad i got to know my cell so much better last night.. esp since we hung out till 4 doing something i never thought i wld ever do with my cell.. haha.. but it was nice singing cheesy songs with weird videos that came along with it.. (:

and today i woke up and spent 45mins cleaning every corner of my house till its really clean.. and that makes me happy.. i think i'm weird.. i rather clean my house than do my soon-to-be-due work.. heh.. oh wells..

edit: and i kept raar-ing in my head when Pat was making fun of my many st nix dances and current dance class in uni.. raar!

stir (: - 3:33 PM.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the heart again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

stir (: - 9:46 PM.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

raar! i'm sick and cold and in pain and irritable.. i've been having some v weird random thoughts recently that make me want to laugh at all the wrong times..

like how i was in the comp lab reading emails and killing time when i read eugenia's email and i realised she only emails/thinks of me when she sees weirdos or thinks weird thoughts..

or how i was having dance class today and we had to pretend we were stingrays swimming in the sea and i suddenly had very strong cravings for chomp chomp stingray..

and in that same dance class, the tutor talked about getting the children to warm up by introducing their names together with an action and i thought of lala and her cheeks..

or how i had to borrow a big artblock sized folder of stuff from the education library yest and as i was walking home i thought i looked like enthu (this guy from my OG tt i don't know his name at all) and i wanted to laugh real bad but i wld really look crazy..

or how we were rehearsing during music class for our presentation and we were going to sing 'If you're happy and you know it' and i was playing the piano and i suddenly thought of my twin and her year-long christmas songs..

oh and i figured out why my left foot is smaller than my right foot.. its cos i'm always banging my left foot/toes into things! esp these few weeks.. and it always hurts alot alot.. but it always happens again and again.. raar..

oh well.. i'm craving mandarin oranges now.. but i can't eat them.. i need to see a doctor tmw.. raar! i refuse to pay for medicine.. i love my homebrand dried apricots.. i love my 1kg of apples.. i abhor math tutes.. its a constant reminder that racism does exist in a country that claims it embraces every other non-anglo-saxon race.. and that snobs exist in every occupation and level of society.. raar.. i have tons of work and assignments to do.. but i'm plain lazy.. bleah.. i need sleep..

stir (: - 11:23 PM.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

today i have dance class for one of my uni subjects.. and i went there (late cos i got lost) expecting to learn nothing except simple damce moves and ways to engage children in dance activities.. and i got SO much more out of it.. so much more..

for a certain segment, we had to pair up and hold a scarf between the two of us.. almost like a one on one tug of war kinda thing.. except that there was to be an equilibrium.. so that if one let go, the other would fall to the ground.. and we had to keep that equilibrium and move across the hall as if we wanted to get away from our partners yet without letting go of the scarf.. (i know my explanation's really bad cos its really hard to describe it..)

anyway, halfway thru this exercise, it suddenly came to me that that's the way we are with God.. we all have this 'equilibrium' with God.. if He lets go, we'll all fall down.. but here's the thing, God will never ever let go.. no matter how we try to run away from Him, in all different manners and in all different ways, God's going to be there always.. no matter how we tug and pull away from Him, God's going to tug and pull us back to Him.. (:

on another note, we're going skiing on saturday!! and we're going to build snowmen and change glenn into a snow leprechaun.. haha! how fun!!

never ever give up before you start.

stir (: - 11:54 PM.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

an impromtu lunch date with liane
turned into an impromtu shoe shopping spree
with us egging each other on..
and like liane said,
sometimes we really don't do no good for each other.. haha..
i have tons of work due within this 4 weeks
which is bad cos i'm still in a bit of a holiday mood..
raar!
conversations with eugenia never fail to cheer me up
and steer me in the right direction..
i should duplicate her
so that she can be here with me.. (:
i need to wake up early tmw..
i need to get down to doing some work..
and i wanna go skiing this weekend.. (:
whee..
i'm craving mandarin oranges now..
how weird..

stir (: - 8:37 PM.