Saturday, October 28, 2006
had a lovely dinner with celest last night.. yummy sukiyaki and my fav eggplant.. i had a tiny lil smile on my face as we parted ways after that.. we let bygones be bygones.. she concluded that i have become apathetic to affairs of the heart after one and a half years.. i think i have.. but it kinda scares me at the same time.. that i have such a couldn't-care-less attitude.. if u told me 2years ago that i would be what i am today, i would probably have laughed at the absurdity of it.. exams are bad for health.. they make me eat.. raar! and it doesn't help that i'm going to stuff myself tmw night.. i hate studying nutrition.. it makes me think about what i eat and how unbalanced it is.. it makes me think about empty calories and how much junk i eat.. raar! and its teaching me how to count my calories.. which is good.. but bad at the same time.. bah! i'm just ranting..
stir (: - 9:52 PM.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
sometimes i find myself shutting my eyes with all my might wishing that you would go away and leave me alone. but if that really happened, i wonder how i would feel.
stir (: - 11:31 PM.
i've been reading up on this and this.. it disgusts me how people are able to allow it to happen.. and watching the documentary on it raised a ton of questions in my mind.. and i know where i wanna work for this upcoming hols.. whether i get paid is another matter.. late night convos with clara never fail to make me laugh.. (:
stir (: - 10:07 PM.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Exams exams.. 10th nov - Learning Area: Mathematics 1 14th nov - Language and Literacy Development 17th nov - Learning, Teaching and Play 1B 22th nov - Learning Area(EC): Health and Physical Ed 1 do please pray for me.. (: raar.. i just made honey semifreddo for my cell! yummy! i wanna keep it all for myself.. it reminded me of judy goh and the spices.. and how we had a bbq last time at my place and we made semifreddo and we gals ended up eating it all cos the smelly boys were watching soccer.. heh.. (:
stir (: - 11:53 AM.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
have you ever felt so irritated that all you can say is UGH! so insulted that talking to that person would just be cheapening yourself? so irked that you're this close to lashing back? God, please grant me patience, understanding and self-control. pretty pretty please. i'm tired. i need rest. my mind cant stop whirling. too many things to think about. too many thoughts swamping my mind. my hands are tied. there's only this much i can do. only this much. sometimes i wish i was my emo self again. that bottle of tears was buried too deep its impossible to find it again. i want to feel. not just happiness, but euphoria. not just sadness, but despair. not just fear, but terror. not just anger, but rage. i want to be alive again. to be alive. i try so hard but it doesnt matter anymore. the ball's in your court now. please give me the respite that i crave for.
stir (: - 12:16 AM.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
imagine this... a sharp, swift bolt of thunder strikes so close that it stuns you for a moment without warning, it starts to pour the rain pours down so heavily so fast you have nowhere to hide nowhere to run for cover but just as quickly as it came, it suddenly stops and you're left there. drenched. now, how about this... a sharp, swift bolt of envy strikes so close that it stuns you for a moment without warning, it starts to pour the tears pour down so heavily so fast you have nowhere to hide nowhere to run for cover but just as quickly as it came, it suddenly stops and you're left there. drenched. shocked at your own reaction. its too late to take cover. its no use anyway. after so long, i never thought i would feel like anymore. not over this. not over this at all. i shocked myself last night. its not fair.
stir (: - 1:21 PM.
its really unglam for a girl like me to play playstation.. heh.. i think it totally ruined my reputation/image (or whatever's left of it) today.. oh wells.. i can't help it.. (: raar..
stir (: - 11:43 PM.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Nothing is more practical than finding God, that is, than falling in love in a quite absolute, final way.
What you are in love with, what seizes your imagination, will affect everything. It will decide what will get you out of bed in the morning, what you will do with your evenings, how you will spend your weekends, what you read, who you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you with joy and gratitude.
Fall in love, stay in love and it will decide everything. -Pedro Arrupe, S.J. (1907-1991) I see this on a poster on the back of my friend's house toilet door almost every friday evening.. its a weird place, i know.. but everytime i see it, it makes me go 'wow!'.. the enormity of falling in love with God.. i've never really thought of it this way..
stir (: - 4:48 PM.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
there was something wrong with the previous post and it cldn't be seen till now.. raar.. have been doing lots since coming back to melb.. rushing assignments and stuff.. raar.. i had a really nice phone conversation two nights ago with jude.. it made me happy.. its been so long since we last talked and it was just nice catching up with her.. and after that it just came to mind how we used to have all our fine grand plans about the future where it was all ideal and nice and dandy.. and look where life has brought us now.. all in different parts of the world.. doing all sorts of different things.. (: what would you do when the task ahead seems too much to handle? when the mountain's too high to climb? when life throws you off the road and all you can see is darkness? do you close your eyes tightly shut and wish with all your might that the mountain would disappear? do you hide under your blanket and cry to yourself? do you mask your turmoils and go about as if everything's fine? do you go out there and get it done against all odds? what do you do? and can i just mention that i really really don't like qantas now.. and that japan photos will be up soon..
stir (: - 9:00 PM.
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